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Until next time… She could feel it when he left this time. Even though she was totally engaged in another activity and not physically in the same room, she could literally feel his presence leave her heart. Her breath left her body in an inaudible gasp as she willed her mind to be still and concentrate on the task at hand.
“Stiff upper lip, stay grounded, focus”, she said to herself.
Hope is healthy. I felt useless, used up, dirty, and used. I didn’t plan or ponder I simply walked into the bathroom and took all the pills in the medicine cabinet. Several days later, I had a conversation with my earthly father about why I was still alive.Through his words, I caught a revelation that if I was still breathing, there must be a reason. If taking all the pills in the medicine cabinet didn’t kill me, then there must be a reason.
Do you not matter more than birds? When everything is still, we can hear. It sounds like a known fact that the opposite of sound is silence, but the phrase takes on a whole new meaning when you experience it for yourself. Recently, I have been more aware of the chirping of birds outside of our home, particularly at night. It's amazing the clarity we receive when we must be still and take inventory of what is going on around us. Hearing their conversation, I was reminded of Matthew 6:25-26
How is your heart? Are you worried? Anxious? Fearful? Is COVID-19 scaring the crap out of you? Are you wondering if you will survive this pandemic physically, financially, and even emotionally? We are all there desperately spinning in a cycle of questions and hopelessness right now. We are wondering how to handle what we are going through and what the outcome is going to be. These are scary unknowns right now and we need outrageous hope.
In this Hope Issue’s editor’s notes: Sometimes it feels like I don’t have enough money, enough training, enough emotional strength, enough faith to carry out what God has called me to do. I get discouraged as a mother. I am not always the best wife, and I feel discouraged by that. I don’t consistently make my monthly income goals and that makes me question myself, His will and my purpose and cry out it is all too much for me to carry on my own.
